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Author: Rebecca

Loving your Story/Letting go of your Story

I’m getting this out to you a little late today because my daughter woke up way too early, right when I was starting to write. Thanks for your patience on this holiday weekend. Today I wanted to share about my story- how I’ve lived it, learned from it, and also how I’m able to let it go.  When I was thirteen I was raped by a group of four older boys while many onlookers watched. I believe I was drugged because I don’t remember how I got there. I spent years denying this trauma until I could no longer ignore it. I had several breakdowns and became suicidal in my early twenties. I then spent years talking about it, going to therapy, writing about it, and...

Loving Yourself

What does it mean to love yourself? It means to sit in a space of love for yourself and embrace yourself in all of your manifestations. Learning to love myself has been a vital part of my healing journey. It’s a step I often overlook and that I think seems a little selfish sometimes, if I’m being honest. But feeling love for myself in the face of difficulty, anger, sadness, and stress, helps me remember who I am. It helps me remember that God created me, and that I’m loved exactly the way I am. Some of the ways I practice loving myself include saying “I love myself” as a mantra, as well as saying “God loves me.” I also breathe and sit in stillness and...

Living Your Dream

What is your dream for your life? You won’t have to think long to know what it is. I imagine that you know exactly what your dream for your life is. It might be too scary to think about, or too big to dare to say, or seem too unimportant, but your dream for your life is extremely valuable. It makes you who you are. I believe that following your dream for your life is a big part of why you’re here. It can be scary to take steps towards your dream, but it doesn’t have to be debilitatingly so. Write it down. Make a vision board. Pray for guidance. Take baby steps towards it. It does not have to be selfish to follow your dream....

I am That

At the workshop this past weekend, Neale taught us about a neat exercise to try. I can take no credit for it! In fact, his unnamed friend taught him this exercise, so even Neale can’t take credit for it. Here’s how it goes. Wherever you are, and whatever you’re doing, experience the truth of your oneness with all things by looking at everything around you and saying “I am that.” This includes people, animals, plants, and even objects. Walking down the street, look at the tree, and in your mind say, “I am that.” Passing by each person, say to yourself, “I am that.” Passing a car, a bicycle, a parking meter, say “I am that.” Since I’ve learned this exercise, I’ve been practicing it in particular...

Learning from Teachers, then Teaching Yourself

I was very fortunate this past weekend to have a chance to learn in person from Neale Donald Walsch, author of Conversations with God. It was a truly amazing experience after having read so many of his books over the past decade plus. I was brought to his books after my own experience of God, which I’ve shared about here. It was an awesome experience to be in the presence of this teacher who has meant so much to me, and a great reminder to trust myself even in the presence of a great teacher. As he teaches and I’ve learned, we are all a part of God, and we each have our own innate wisdom. I’ve learned so much from him and from other...

Sharing Your Story

Thank you to all my new readers and for people who’ve started following this blog! I’m very grateful for you! It took me a lot of courage to begin writing this blog and I am so happy to all of you who are along for the ride. Even though I’m telling my story, and I’m grateful to you for reading it, your story is important too. Your story is beautiful. The parts of your story that seem mundane to you or even embarrassing, might be the most important and healing to someone else. I hope that if you’re feeling the itch to start writing or sharing your story, that you will do so. You never know how what you share may affect another’s life for the...

Letting Nature Guide You

As I write to you, I’m sitting outside in our pocket of the city, listening to birds begin their chirping and watching the sunlight begin to brighten the sky. Though we live in an industrial city, I’m grateful for the pocket of nature we’ve created for ourselves. It’s never far from my mind that this land was once a forest populated by First Peoples who lived in greater harmony with the land. Though I live in this now-industrial city in a capitalistic society, nature is still here. Nature comes from God. Following the breath of nature puts us in touch with the heart of God. Growing up, I did not know how out of touch I was with nature until I learned how to be in...

Healing and Politics

Though this is not a political blog, it’s hard to separate politics from healing when there seems to be so much need for healing in our current political climate. No matter what country you live in, there seem to be so many issues rearing their heads, from nationalism, to economic inequality, to anti-immigrant policies. And yet, each day there is something to celebrate. Each day people are still fighting for the good. And each day is a chance for me to remember that the greatest shift happens within.  What if all politicians and all people came to realize that there is only one of us? That would pretty quickly solve a lot of our problems. If we saw ourselves in everyone else we would never be able to...

Seeing the Good

I admit that sometimes it is hard to see the good in people and things around us. We live in a beautiful world that is also full of pain, hardship, and suffering. Is it trite or even cruel to see the good when we know others are suffering? In my own life, I have found it’s always good to see the good, not in order to deny the bad or difficult, but to allow the good to grow. I would not have healed if everyone around me were only seeing the negative in the world. I needed visionaries who could see past pain and see beauty and love in me, and in the world around me. I held onto those people’s conceptions until I could walk...

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Trusting Divine Timing

A concept that’s come up again and again in my life has been trusting in God’s timing. There have been so many times when I’ve wanted something so badly and had to wait for what seemed like no reason, because the circumstances just weren’t right yet. I’ve had to prepare, give it my best, and then be patient. And then, when the time was right, though I couldn’t have pinpointed why, that thing I was waiting for came to fruition. The metaphor of a garden is probably overused, but only because it’s so relevant to healing and to God. Fruit can’t ripen before its time. It requires good soil, sun, and water, but it still needs time to grow and become. That process can’t be rushed....

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