Inner vs. Outer Worlds
One of my greatest coping mechanisms after my trauma was learning how to seem “okay” and even “successful” in my outer world as my inner world spun out of control. The technique helped me stop getting in trouble with my family, and helped me feel in control of my life. For a long time I even believed that I was okay because I had it all together on the outside.
How wrong I was! I learned that lesson when my outer world stopped working for me. My heart kept calling out to me to heal beneath my successes through forms such as anxiety, insomnia, and depression. Friends from that time in my life might not have noticed, and I wonder if many of them may have been dealing with something similar. But there were always those people I met who could see past my outer facade, and I (aka my ego) was usually afraid of them. My Reiki teacher was one of these people. Thankfully she saw past my outer self with loving eyes, which truly helped me to heal and bring my inner self to the surface.
As I’ve healed, my inner world has become the focal point of my daily life, and my outer world takes its shape from the pulses of my inner life. At the earliest stages of my healing, I had to make many shifts and changes in my outer world to align myself with my healing heart. This looked like moving home, changing career paths, learning Reiki, and letting down the walls I’d built around myself. I was thankful to have the opportunity to do this. However, once I made the shifts to align my inner and outer worlds more evenly, my healing path hasn’t required such drastic changes.
I’ve found that the world can be much more gentle than I was trained to believe. Healing can take place at the pace that’s right for you and in step with your outer world. You don’t have to give up everything in your outer reality. God (your angels, team of light, the Universe, or whatever you prefer to name it) is here to help you. Say a prayer for gentle healing and alignment of your inner and outer worlds.
We need you – the real you – here.
